I really miss my old home, and I wish I had more time to absorb everything. I wish I had the time to soak up the joy and the laughter and to bask myself in the warm sunlight on the balcony of that cruise ship. I wish I could close my eyes more often and embrace the moment, the scent, the sound, the atmosphere. I wish I could stop thinking for just awhile, to stop my brain from rambling, instead to let the heart feel what it wants to feel, to let my body free to express what it feels like expressing. To capture the wind with my palms, to hear the sidewalk under my feet, to let the chills run down my back instead of shaking it off, i'll let it carry to the tips of my nerves. I wish I had. And maybe I did. All to miss it the more.