Injustice

I still try. I still do my best even if I know I'm not first.
I run for the prize.

Perfect is not having my life in order. It's loving as Jesus did, even if that means w/ a broken heart.
And I'm sad and weak. At least I try to love. I try to gain strength. I try to run the race w/ all that I am.

Sharing Verses About Stewardship

This past Thursday, InterVarsity had large group: We learned about being wise with using TIME:
Matthew 6:21
For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Academics Read Colossians 3:23, Ephesians 6:6, and Proverbs 16:13
Body Read Romans 12:1, 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
Rest Read Genesis 2:2-3, Exodus 20:8-10, Matthew 8:24
Fellowship Read John 15:12-15
God Read Luke 10:38-4

A relationship with God - knowing my King - is the best. Believe in Him, and not just know about His characteristics. When you reflect on your life, ask yourself if you accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior: Then ask yourself if you believe in the power of His death and resurrection, how He has cleansed your sins forever.
If not, take time to sit alone. Remove yourself from noise, people, and any distraction - TAKE AN HONEST LOOK AT YOURSELF.
What do you see? Who do you see? What is the condition of your heart? How is your mind reacting? Why is it acting this way? Why is it hard to sit still? Lift them up - LET GOD TAKE YOUR BURDENS.
Sit still - quiet your heart, and let the Holy Spirit speak to it! Rest assured that Jesus' life and death and resurrection is a real event in history and its power remains relevant to TODAY, your very life!

Of Course

A relationship with God is not about being perfect. It's not about living up to His expectations. It's about walking with Him. Then, of course, time is really non-existent, because we live eternally when we abide in Jesus Christ.

Up Late for a Reason

First, I can't withhold good from another person.
Second, I've been cleaning, tidying, and organizing all day, but when it comes down to going to sleep, I must examine my heart.
This time, I'm pretty sure I want to disclose some things:
I renounced God (not the existence of Him, but His authority over my life) about a year ago, maybe two. I was bitter and angry at Him for keeping me His slave. At the time, I felt friendless, lonely, and both misunderstood and not understood.
Over the following weeks, that extended through months, I lived in darkness. It was not only terrifying, but also like fire, burning everything unnecessary until all that remained was God again. I felt God watching me from afar, but by His grace, He gradually brought me back into light.
There is no doubt in my mind that the things I went through in darkness completely drained me. Therefore, I became weak, tired all the time, and everything was all too much for me to micro-manage anymore.
Now, this very moment, I ask that if you are a brother or sister in Christ, that you would pray for me to surrender all I am to God, again, because I feel like there are areas in my heart that refuse to be vulnerable to God again, even though, I'm sure, God can see those parts. If those areas I refuse to give up are wounds, I ask that you can intercede so that God can heal me and make me strong, so that I can serve Him, again (I thank you, in advance, if you pray for me!).