It's been crazy so far. For the most part, I don't know what to say, since it's been so out-of-the-ordinary. Yes, in fact I do feel different. But I have to say that I did feel like a part of this world at one time. I felt like the world was bigger than me and the people around me I could connect to.
But now, it's hard to find the ground on which I can stand and meet other people. It's hard to be on the same page. It's hard to see that my thinking is the same others are thinking. In an attempt to save a life, I lose it. In an effort to keep it, I lose it. Indeed it is crazy, because we think going to church, going to fellowship, and thinking about God, or even acknowleding Him makes Him real, but He's not real until we realize that we don't actually know God, that we can't fully know Him at the most. We have an idea, we know some words that characterize Him, but it's all code.
It's all a way for us to be comfortable with feeling secure. Isn't it? Well, it's a hard thing to challenge your own beliefs, but you have to, otherwise, you might really wander into the darkness or fall into the pit of doom. Seriously, in the pit, there is just darkness, clear sights of evil, and doom.
What are people working for. It beheeves me to consider that they have no idea. That they just go with the system, the flow; they comform to what everyone else is doing, because it looks stable, it seems right. But that's just the opposite of how they feel sometimes. It feels like it's not right, it feels wrong. It feels like they are lost, that they have no sense of objective, that they are being pushed around, or judged for things they didn't want in the first place. Well, I may subconciously be saying these things out loud, as a reflection of self, but I mean it. Doesn't this world feel like a repetition of old things? Don't you observe the way people behave, or how they justify their actions? It feels like a movie, it feels like a universe of clashing clones.
Somehow, we just envelop each other, or we bounce off of each other with postive and negative energy - not thinking much.
Is this sanity to you? Or is this a melting pot we are swirling in?
But now, it's hard to find the ground on which I can stand and meet other people. It's hard to be on the same page. It's hard to see that my thinking is the same others are thinking. In an attempt to save a life, I lose it. In an effort to keep it, I lose it. Indeed it is crazy, because we think going to church, going to fellowship, and thinking about God, or even acknowleding Him makes Him real, but He's not real until we realize that we don't actually know God, that we can't fully know Him at the most. We have an idea, we know some words that characterize Him, but it's all code.
It's all a way for us to be comfortable with feeling secure. Isn't it? Well, it's a hard thing to challenge your own beliefs, but you have to, otherwise, you might really wander into the darkness or fall into the pit of doom. Seriously, in the pit, there is just darkness, clear sights of evil, and doom.
What are people working for. It beheeves me to consider that they have no idea. That they just go with the system, the flow; they comform to what everyone else is doing, because it looks stable, it seems right. But that's just the opposite of how they feel sometimes. It feels like it's not right, it feels wrong. It feels like they are lost, that they have no sense of objective, that they are being pushed around, or judged for things they didn't want in the first place. Well, I may subconciously be saying these things out loud, as a reflection of self, but I mean it. Doesn't this world feel like a repetition of old things? Don't you observe the way people behave, or how they justify their actions? It feels like a movie, it feels like a universe of clashing clones.
Somehow, we just envelop each other, or we bounce off of each other with postive and negative energy - not thinking much.
Is this sanity to you? Or is this a melting pot we are swirling in?
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